Don’t Let Your Inner Hype Man Die

I have just experienced a blessing, but do you want to know what has been happening up to this point? Stress. I am here to help you get through the period of time that has to pass, in order for a possibly life-altering decision to be made.

  1. Acceptance: No matter how bad the situation, you must learn to accept what ever it is that has happened. There is usually a period of disbelief that follows bad news. The more time you deny that what has happened, happened, the more time you waste. Towards the end of disbelief comes a scarier thought: “This is really happening”.
  2. Understanding the Consequences: If you’re anything like me, when a really stressful event happens, you tend to think too much and too far ahead. Once you accept the happening as reality, it is important to come to terms with what the consequences are or might be. Often times, worse does come to worst. Don’t sugar coat anything. The truth of what may happen will manifest eventually, it’s just better to be prepared for it. Intentionally, lightly kicking the leg of a table may hurt, but accidentally stubbing your toe on the leg of a table hurts 5 times more.  If the worst happens, what should be done next? ONLY THINK 1 STEP AHEAD HERE. Do not commit yourself to thinking that you will do this next step, the future has yet to be present.
  3. Get Ready For the Finale: Once you have accepted the reality of the situation and understood the possible consequences, it’s time to build yourself back up. We all have a hype man/woman/being inside of us. They have been dazed and confused due to all the recent stress, therefore, silent as well. By thinking one step ahead of the worst, you have already increased your confidence in handling the situation. It is time to remind yourself that you are capable to make the best out of any challenge. Prepare to rip your situation a fucking new one. Focus on your current success, whatever it may be.

Whatever is going to happen, is going to happen, you’ve already accepted that. You understand what could happen, and you are now prepared for both the best and the worst. Time will pass. Challenges will become memories. You’ll have learned what to do, or not to do, for the future.



My mind is quite an interesting space to be. It’s not always exciting but nor is it always calm. I can’t say it’s extraordinary, but it is almost never dull, and is absolutely never average. The balance of my mind teeters back and forth on the fence that divides sanity and madness, like a tight rope walker whose had a few drinks. It is not always a good time here, but it is also not always a bad time either. The only constant of my mind, is the fact that it is forever changing. My mind is quite an interesting space to be. I wish I was better at expressing myself in the flesh, so that I could take more of you on a ride, but I’m still working on that. I think that’s one of the reasons I write. To be able to anonymously invite you into a space, where you’re not sure what to expect. To give you a glimpse of the behind the scenes of my person. Feel free to keep your hands outside the vehicle if you wish. Seat belts are recommended, but not required. My mind is easy to get lost in if you fall off the tracks. You have been warned. Please, take your time and float around a bit. Enjoy the ride.

Invite Only

I have come to figure out what it means to “be in your own world”. I used to think that it simply meant to be zoned out, but now I realize that it’s not just about being in deep thought or not attentive. Being in your own world is to feel as if you’re completely alone in the world. When you don’t feel any outside pressure to act or dress or talk or look any sort of way. No pressure to exist. Everyone else just fades out of the picture until you become interested enough to invite others into your world.

What It Really Means To Live Like It’s Your Last Day

It’s been said that to enjoy life to the fullest, one must live like it is their last day alive. I believe this to be true, but I also believe the meaning has been misconstrued. To “live like today’s your last”, has been considered to mean that one must do as much as they’ve ever wanted to do, in that given day. Although, as encouragingly lively as that concept may be, I feel that idea has strayed from what it really mean to live like today’s your last. Let’s face it. Each person has at least 5 things they hop to accomplish in life, and if that person can accomplish those 5 goals, then I offer my applause, but it is not likely that they will pull that feat off in just one day. To live life to the fullest, in the sense of attempting to cram great accomplishments into one day, is not the right idea. I feel that, with that mindset, there is an unreasonable and unbearable amount of pressure placed on the individual. That kind of pressure can even be crippling to one’s thought process and therefore mood. For me, to truly live like it’s your last day on Earth is to simply go about your day in the most positive mindset, and with the most pure intentions. Granted, there must be a great deal of spontaneity and opportunity seeking, but to live like it’s your last is to have a bountiful appreciation for your life as well as everything and everyone around you. Imagine that you have a job where some of your coworkers tend to rake your nerves, and unfortunately like most jobs, working there is not what you’d rather be doing with your time. Now there are 2 different ways one can approach their work day, if they are trying to live like it’s their last day. That person can come into work, slack off immensely, (if they even show up) and give their occasionally annoying coworkers a piece of their resentment. OR, that person can show up to work, do their job as efficiently as possible, and try their best to be friendly and positive towards their coworkers. If the person following the first method happens to make it through the night without dying, then that person has made their workplace more hostile, if they even have a job to come back to. The person following the second method has not only impressed management by performing their job efficiently positively, and with clear effort, but they have also set up the foundation for establishing better bonds with their coworkers. To truly “live like it is your last day alive” is not to attempt to accomplish your life goals, and do only the things you want, in one day, but to seek opportunity, be spontaneous, and retain a positive attitude and mindset towards yourself and others, not matter what. Tomorrow is never promised, but it is always beneficial to set yourself up for a better tomorrow.

You Can’t See Monsters in The Dark

Let me describe a feeling I’ve been experiencing lately:

First, close your eyes. Now, it doesn’t matter where you are or what time it is, or even what you were just doing. Despite the lack of vision, you know exactly where you are. As for me;

For better or for worse, I am surprised each time i open my eyes. More than often, I find it is much easier to just keep them closed.